That my life wont ever be normal.:/ I have been dealing with depression/anxiety all my life and have yet to feel normal.(30/m)In fact, i dont recall a time that i didn't feel overwhelmed or full of anxiety.My life has been overwhelmed with social anxiety i've missed out on so much.Every time i try a new anti-depressant i have such high hopes that it will pull me out of these horrible feelings,yet it never does.I have recently filled for disability in hopes that it will get approved and i will be able to get on a decent health care plan and get the help i need!

I seen a pysch doctor when i went for the disability interview and tried my best to explain exactly how i was feeling.It was tough seeing that my head is sooooo foggy its tough to get the words out.All i want is to find a med that works so i can work out my problems.

What i'm most terrified is that i'll have anhedonia i guess its called and never feel any form of happiness!How common is it for a person to never be able to function again?I guess this was just a semi-rant but just needed to get it out.thanks for listening.