Hi guess I'm just needing to vent a little so its Mothers Day should be a good day but not so much.. My own mother was abusive and I am not close to her at all.
I am also a mother of 3 children ages 13 my baby girl, my sweet boys are 10 and 5.
I have have hurt my children emotionally so bad through out the years.One of the big things that has hurt them is when I am having a manic episode, I for whatever reason will get a bag of clothes and leave sometimes for months like I don't even care. Although I do love them more than anything so just picking up and Leaving my baby's WHY? Its seems crazy looking back especially when I have no real reason or rhyme to my maddness.

I really feel like I have been such a bad mother that I just want to sleep all day and get this day over with. I really don't feel like I deserve there love let alone anything else. Anyway just needed to get that off my chest....