i have been divorce for 7 months now and i am not getting over this the way i should have. i was with a man for 20 years, 8 lived with him and 12 married. he left me for a girl 24 years younger than himself and got her pregnant 9 months after they met, they are now engaged and have been living together since he left. i have my good days where i feel like im better than this and i deserve better. and than i have days that i cry all the time because i feel so ugly, unworthy and so old. i gave this man everything love, understanding, i worked outside the home inside the home, cooked, cleaned. i thought he loved me, i sit and think did he ever love me? how could he just up and walk away from a good marriage. we werent fighting we were talking about buying a house, retiring, vacations. we even told each other that if we died we would want to be the first to go because it would be hard to live without one another. how can he just up an leave like i was some stranger to him? i got the divorce because he said he wanted one, i got alimony for 5 years, but i would gladly trade the money to have him back. she is so young she just turned 24 in dec. and she already has a 4 year old from another relationship with a guy who was a year younger than her. she does not have to work, she stopped working 2 months after they started seeing each other. will i ever be able to feel whole again? will i ever stop loving him? im so tired of hurting.