i have taken benzo,s for 35 years , sometimes has high has 12 mg ativan a day. now down to 4mg a day, but i like takeing them they still work for me with an AD . Its the AD,S i dont like weight gain, sex life crap , ect ect you dont get this with benzo,s. My gp or shrink wont give me anymore and i carnt afford internet price. I would gladly get rid of AD and just add 2mg more ativan makeing six. I have anxierty thats starts depression, kill anxierty then no depression, why dont the docs work this out. i need and am willing to take them all my life, why not i need something why not benzo,s. I dont need more and more im cool with them. It would kill me to detox ,then i still need something else so why stop . i already did one detox thats worse than death i will never survive another 8mg cold drop like last time.