Hang in there OP. I have been thru that tunnel and back. In support to you and anyone else who is suffering from depression, always act on impulses of what you are not what others want you to be or acting on their deviant perception of what they want you to be or act like.

What I do is think about my immediate family, the love I have for them, the love they have for me, the accomishments I have done in my life and that brings up high self esteem in me and the mentality needed to face this world.

Hang in there. If you are taking any sort of medications, I'm sure eventually they'll kick in and help you further. You have my support, God bless you and your family.