KarriesBaby,
I agree. If you feel like you are going to do something drastic, you need to get some help that is close by. People will always be here for you, but there is no shame in getting professional help on an emergency basis.

Do you have anyone in the house or a friend that can stay with you at this time? Sometimes the presence of another person who had gone through many of the same thing is a good thing.

If you feel that you are going to try and end your llife, take yourslef to the ER. Many times that is a short window of time

Sam2