I've also posted this in addictions, not sure the rules about cross-posting but here it goes...

I'm in a pretty low spot today. I'd been doing really well. Hit a bit of mania which had gotten my house cleaned which it desperately needed. Anyway, I've recently started taking topamax which had been crazy good for my alcohol cravings. I was able to have one glass of wine and was actually leaving glasses unfinished. Never in my life had I experienced that. As great as the Topamax has been for me it really doesn't address depression. I spend most of time in depressive state. I added some rhodiola rosea (an herbal therapy) back in. I found the rhodiola negated all the alcohol craving benefits the topamax offered. Consequently I ended up drinking at least a bottle of wine and having a seizure while I was drunk. I was fully conscious/aware during. I was journaling at the time and my whole right side had spasms as well as visual disturbances. Troubling was the fact that I didn't care if I died. I guess I just need to vent this. Husband is very busy right now. I really don't want to burden him with "oh btw had a seizure last night because I drank too much with my crazy meds." I really have no support other than him and he can only shoulder so much so I'm turning to you psychcentral. Not sure if this warrants a doc call or if I can just throw this one in the pile of stupidity (which is a very big pile). Thanks in advance if you made it through my long *** post.