I went out with a friend tonight. It was fun. The problem is that I go out so infrequently that I find myself clinging too tightly. When it's time to go home I don't want to; I want to stay out just a little longer and have just a little more fun. It's tough for me to call it quits so my friend thinks that I'm mad that he wants to go home. I'm not; I just feel lonely for his company because I have company so infrequently. It sucks. God, I'm so lonely.