
It is very common to feel that way at times - mental health concerns are extremely difficult to live with and manage. There still isn't a perfect cure. Often we are just managing the symptoms the best way we know how.
But it often is possible to have a good life. A life where you can get what you want out of it. It is not easy and it can take a lot of negotiation and compromise with those around you and yourself but it is possible.
Don't give up just yet

It is ok to feel vulnerable and feel that way - what you are going through is extremely difficult and there is no perfect fix. But you can still have a life. It may not be the same as the persons next door or what they find normal but it is about finding what makes you happy - what you want to get out of life.