Dear T,

I hope you will turn out to be trustworthy. I'm feeling sooooo much guilt over my reaction to you last week and worrying myself sick that "you're mad at me." /: I feel pathetic that I think/feel that way. I guess I'm terrified of anger - my own and others. I didn't mean to be so difficult and hope you understand. I'm sorry....it's only Monday and I'm already starting to get extra anxious...I'm prob going to be a wreck by the time I see you later this week. I wonder if you will be irritated with me and tell me so....I'd almost rather you just say it because I cannot imagine you really could put up with me too much longer without feeling that way. I feel like it is inevitable, T.....