well. I really started my battle with it. And it's the toughest thing I've ever done in my life, but everytime I manage to do something myself, I am happy, and I become stronger. It's more like war, not like just a battle really really hard and exhausting, but I'm gonna defeat it, I know. I'm on the right road, it's just long and tough.
I had enough of it, I'm gonna win this battle.
thanks for the support everyone!