I think a lot comes from the attitudes of my parents... they don't think I should go for it, but just "try harder to think positive"... If it were that easy, I would have done it by now... ugh. It's weird that I could help my own clients get on disability, and never thought any different of them. But when it comes to me, I have no idea where to even begin nor can I get over the feeling of hopelessness that comes with it... I know I need it though. It's more difficult to live off the kindness and charity of others than it is to get some cash from the government for mental health issues.