Winter, i haven't had a drink in over 12 years, just to let you know it can be done. I think the question you're asking is if you are a true alcoholic as you've only tried a few times, but want a drink and are wondering if you started up again, if you will be an actual alcoholic because of that. All I know is that I HAVE to stay away or it will kill me. If i started up gain, i would not live too much longer as it would destroy my brain cells and my liver like someone else mentioned. Sobriety is my drunk, that is just how i look at it an that is how i feel. I need my sense of reality by not drinking, the whole world is different in the past 12 years. I hope you stick with the decision to not drink anymore, you'll be doing you and your body and mind a great favor. Good Luck!