I'm sorry you had such a horrible experience. Is there any way you can try to see a different psych? I mean, she just was NOT at all helpful... she's treating you with all the negative (and inaccurate) stereotypes of BPD in the forefront... intelligence and beauty has nothing to do with internal suffering... That lady has no business being a psychiatrist. I have experienced some of that, but not to that degree. Mostly it was a psychiatrist while I was inpatient... He was a complete turd and very unhelpful.
I did not read your previous posts, so don't really know the specifics, but I would seek other help if I were you... Even if there is another pdoc in the practice, they may be better than this lady. :/ Are you restricted in who you see? can you request someone else? can you go to another agency?