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Originally Posted by MdngtRain
I think a lot comes from the attitudes of my parents... they don't think I should go for it, but just "try harder to think positive"...  If it were that easy, I would have done it by now... ugh. It's weird that I could help my own clients get on disability, and never thought any different of them. But when it comes to me, I have no idea where to even begin nor can I get over the feeling of hopelessness that comes with it... I know I need it though. It's more difficult to live off the kindness and charity of others than it is to get some cash from the government for mental health issues. |
Good morning,
I understand where you are coming from. I could deal with clients who were working through abuse issues. However I was overwhelmed at point and went IP for a 3 days.
You do the same thing I do...............drive yourself crazy with the "what if's". It has been my experience that my worst case scenario doesn't happen. I would waste so much energy with "what if", I didn't have energy to function in other parts of my life. My motto for that cycle in my thoughts was, "when in fear, when in doubt, run in circles scream and shout". It was extremely helpful....not.
I know in the state where I live, there are IP programs for folks who have no $ or jobs. Perhaps your T could help you find one.
As far as applying for disablity, no shame there. You admit you have no problems with clients who are on disability...... could you be that nonjudgemental and generous to yourself? I agree with you, I would rather get disability $ than $ from family. Somehow, when family members get involved, they believe they are entitled to control your decisions. From what you posted, it sounds like they have no understanding on MI.
If you get disability while you work through your issues, I believe you can once again work with clients. Please allow yourself the same grace you give your clients.
Take gentle care,
Sabra