Well, Akekaomen, I hope you will definitely go over your thoughts to us with your therapist. That person needs to know what you are really going through, and she (or he) needs to try to help you find the positive in life.

In my view, having suffered depression in my life, I think that changes in your diet might be helpful for you to continue to function at a steady level.

Please ask yourself the following questions:

1. Do you use alcohol to relieve stress? If so, please stop using it because it makes
depression worse.

2. Do you drink coffee, tea, or eat anything with chocolate in it? If you think you may have any sensitivity to those things, you should remove them from your diet, because
they have a negative influence on depression. Drink water. That's best for you.

3. Look at your diet next: ask your wife to do some "home cooking" for you! Get
more fresh vegetables, salads (have a fresh salad daily, please)more fruit, and less
red meat in your diet. Eat more fish and consider taking an Omega 3 fatty acid if you would. It is known that it helps the brain function.

If you just be gentle with yourself and take it slowly, making the most apparent change in your diet that you need to make, you will find yourself feeling better and having much more energy and sleep well at night.

The last thing I would ask you to do is to remove as much sugar as you can from your diet because it makes the emotions like a yo-yo! You will feel calmer, less stressed,
more at ease than you have in a long time if you can manage to cut way back on that.

This is really a matter of being what I call pro-active in our care. Eventually, it may
enable you to cut back on some of your meds (with psychiatrist's approval) because
they all are acidic in digestion. It is desirable to keep more alkaline foods in the diet
than acidic-reacting ones.

I hope this helps somewhat. I am so sorry to see you go through this. Any and everything you can do to help is important.

(Tell your wife to move over to your side and help with positive thinking and planning
good, home-cooked meals for the family.)

Take care of yourself and good wishes,