Hi all,
I just wanted to get on a soap box for a moment.

Basically I had a really rough session with my T today. Long story short, I told my T that I had been having all sorts of ruminations of not trusting her for the longest time. I mentioned that I feel like I am back to square one after 3 years with her and wondered if I should leave. She said that it was up to me, but that I should call her if I wanted to schedule another appointment. She said that if I were to leave it would be good to have a couple of more sessions.

So I have "threatened" to leave before, but this was the first time I got this far. I am just confused if this is what I really want or if it is just that I am afraid of commitment with my T. Another thing I think about is, maybe the T wants to milk the last few sessions or she wants to manipulate me staying longer. I try not to think like this and hope that she truly wants to help me, but I can't help but wonder if I am just "patient #139" for her and just another test subject - which drives me bonkers! We have addressed this issue many times before and she assures that she truly cares for me, but I still have my doubts for whatever reason

That was my sticking point with my T in the end, is that ever since I been with her, I just started to think more and get confused and haven't felt better at some parts of my life. On the other hand, I can see I made progress in other parts of my life.

Thoughts or comments about this? Anyone been through this? I don't know anyone I can share with this (other than my T) other than you guys