as I sit here and replay the only moments that I can recall from my time in hospital they all seem jagged and not to right in the head. I remember peeing the bed...because I was stuck to all these cords and if I only I could unravel from them to go to the bathroom...

it seems way funny now but I must of been a nuisance to the nurses.

today I feel all hot and sweaty ick ick ick ick

now I am bawling for unknown reasons