Hello im new here. I grew up with an alcoholic dad, I was always trobeled in school, could never behave my self, first time I got expelled was grade 3 during my parents temporary two year break up. I always never cared about how well I done in school I dropped out in grade 10 to work and I let alcohol take control over my life very quickly. after putting my self in a number of bad situations that almost got me killed, I seen a doctor who referred me to a Pdoc where I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 disorder.

I wish it ended there but I had my doubts, the first med didnt work so I just, continued to self destruct for another two years, had a baby on the way. Not being there for my daughter hurt a lot, but thank god her mom was a good mother. when I finally went to rehabilitation I got ahold of him to make another appointment as soon as I got out. Things are much better now, I no longer drink and im working to get my mood under control, I see my daughter every week whenever I can. Its been 10 months on lithium and it helps a lot but I wish things were better. I am 20 years old and it feels like I threw so much time away I could have spent bettering my self. Its like life is still just beginning. I need to work on my responsibilities a lot