It's gonna be ok. You do a lot of good for PC. A lot for me too. I hope you feel better soon. If you wanna laugh here's a little anecdote for you:
Picture It: 5th grade math class. Your typical smaller town middle school. A typical math class with that old battleaxe teacher. I always thought she would explode into a firey apocolypse if someone oposed her. Oh yeah, make no mistake. She was a spit fire. Regardless, We were having a huge test that day. 125 questions, and you could have heard a pin drop anywhere among those 30 kids. Including me. The test wasn't too hard but it took some thinking.I digress once more, However, there I am, working on a problem when I felt a sneeze comming on. I got a little scared because I knew it was the type of sneeze that could knock over a bus. It was gonna be one of those sneezes that left you with disgusting strings of snot hanging from your nose. Mortified, I clinched my teeth, tightened up my lips and then it came. I had held it in but it came out the other end. Yup, I had stopped the sneeze from hell only to expell the fart from hell. Total silence and just this monstrous ripping sound from my nether parts. I swear, everyone had looked at me like my butt had just exploded like a hotdog in a microwave. Needless to say, I had the attention of everyone. The teacher even just kinda stopped and stared. I kept my eyes down and eventually everyone stopped. I felt like I had just streaked the superbowl or something. so embarassing but it makes me laugh so hard. just total silence and all of sudden RI-I-I-I-IP!...It was so horrible. *Covers muh face*

I hope this puts you in better spirits. I'm rootin' for you. Know that I believe in you. -Michael-