Miller- Your story sounds a lot like mine. I almost feel that I could have written it. And I cried when I read it. I've been finding some comfort in venting and I just found this forum, which I think is amazing! I read the posts, make a comment, get some of my stuff out there and cry. I feel better after! I'm only just discovering my depression and have never before had anyone to talk to that understood what I was going through. Those people are here. Keep posting and I think it's ok to cry while you do it.