You are not a joke. I found out today that there are some big solar flares going on. In astronomy it means radio signals go out etc. In esoteric astrology it means be careful, you may feel off center. Know it will pass. This info gave me solace today because I was not ok last night, way off balance, rageful. But your situation is its own unique one. Please rest tonight and lean on hubby for support stay as calm as possible. Love you