I'm in my last year of my degree and trying to decide what to do after graduation. I'm not sure if this happens in the US as well, but I'll be graduating with just a Bachelor's degree and Honours is an additional year that I can take. I'm pretty academic, like studying, I know how weird that sounds, don't judge me. I really want to do honours but I'm not sure if I should.

Well, I don't know if I'm being paranoid because everyone tells me I'm being paranoid but it feels so real so I'm pretty sure that there is at least some truth to it. I feel like all my lecturers are out to get me, like they don't like me and they keep spreading horrible stuff around about me. And I have actually heard stuff being said about me... I think no matter how well I do, they'll just think I'm a nerd. I actually thought one of my lecturers was directing a comment at me. Something about how smart people can't work with people and can't communicate. I seriously thought she was talking about me because I'm a total introvert. I do make efforts to communicate and talk to people though, I'm just not as extroverted as other people. I want to try applying for honours, but I keep thinking its a waste of my time because all my lecturers can't stand me and I probably won't be able to find a supervisor. Either that or I'll find one and they just won't care. I'm thinking of applying to other places but I know everybody is pretty connected and most of my lecturers either studied or worked at the other schools as well. I don't want people to have a bad impression of me before I even apply to another place. What should I do? Should I just give up and not do my honours?