Welcome Nmz1
Bhrani is right
You can get out of your rut.
I can relate as I'm in a rut myself
and starting to take steps to get into
school. You can do it. Go get outside
and get some fresh air & sun it does help.
What would you like to do?
Begin today to make a list of small changes
that you would like to do.
It's alright if you love video games, but perhaps
you can integrate other things like going outside
for air, or going to the store, taking a ride somewhere
or even going to a park.
Depression is a very difficult mental illness.
But you'll be alright. Try some different distractions.
Also try going to the library that's a pretty good activity.
((((HUGS))))
You hang in there.