Thanks guys, it's nice to know that I'm not being ridiculous! I'm going to try and get through to psychiatry again but because it's on the NHS, it may take a while. It's funny because my best friend asked her CPN about this said pdoc and her nurse just gave this look of "oh god, not her." x] I can half deal with the way she handled me but it pisses me off that she's teaching other training psychiatrists with this attitude or other patients that really need the help. Grrrrrrrrrr.