congrats!. yes- that is a small victory indeed!

but yes... i know exactly what you mean with the social thing- especially when i'm at home, and my brother's having someone to dinner or something

they are eating in the next room and my door is closed so they don't come in here... but i'm thinking- i really need a drink, but the drinks are in the next room where the people are... i can't go out their yet and i'm all anxious and stuff- lots of thoughts in my head about what would happen if i went out their etc.

sometimes i'll stop and listen at the door and if they are out of the way.. like using the restrooms or in the kitchen making tea, i'll sneak out for like half a second, grab 1 of the drinks and head back in to my room

i'm lucky in the sense that i'm never usually caught