So my end of year show is coming up and the teacher wants a showreel of our best work. (i study animation at uni) I cringe when i look at my work and hate myself for not being better. I have been severely depressed recently so i have not been producing much work and improving my skills. I'm seriously considering not to submit any work but i know that sounds stupid. If i do submit work, i would get too excited and believe something good will happen or i will get lots of praise when in actual fact, i most likely will be dismissed.

Worse yet, if i do get praise, i wouldn't know how to handle the attention or i dismiss it for kindness. The show last year was a big let down and kinda a failure.