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Originally Posted by ManicMe
My problem is that once I start "spinning up" I cant stop. I cant control it and I perseverate until its over. Unpredictable is an understatement and there are so many triggers that I cant even name them all. I'm angry, sad, and anxious all at the same time. I know what I am doing, I just cant control myself.  |
Yes, this sounds exactly like what happens when I have an episode. Sometimes I feel like I'm seperate from myself. Like part of me is watching from a distance, a quiet observer of the hurricane.
After it's over I always feel physically like crap, too. Like my brain has been scrambled and my organs have been rearranged. It's a powerful force, I think. Like the whole nervous system is going haywire and once it's over you can still feel the shock running through you.