I had this weird (for me, hadn't experienced it before) feeling yesterday...

I laid in my bed. It was late, bro and mom was fighting (triggering). I covered my ears because I didn't want to hear it. I thought about our inner world (we don't really have an inner world but I'm trying to make one), picturing myself being there, where it was all safe. I told anyone who might be there (co-concious) that it was safe there.

Then, after some time, I realized that I couldn't move. It wasn't like I couldn't no matter how hard I tried, but it was really hard. I felt as if I was made of stone, I felt so heavy! I thought that maybe it was someone wanting to switch, because in a way I felt a switching-feeling that I've felt before (being pulled backwards). I have never switched before. And so, I thought about an alter in particular, and the feeling got stronger and I felt like I was being pulled away from the body... as if I was right behind it, in a way, although I still had my eyes closed. Then I realized that I couldn't go "inside", as nothing more happened than what I've described so far. I tried to calm myself down since the feeling of not being in control of the body was a bit scary.

After a while of thinking about the inner world to calm myself down, I was able to move like normal again, and things felt somewhat normal. During the whole process my head had been aching quite a bit, and my whole body had, in a way, been pounding.

Anyone who recognizes this feeling? Could it be that it was someone wanting to switch/me going inside, or you think it was something else? I'm a bit confused since I haven't experienced it before, and I'd be happy to hear what you guys think.

~ The host