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Originally Posted by notALICE
The drugs are *not* working & I miss the mania, minus the insomnia part. Ok and totally "Mom's nuts part". Mostly I think due to lack of sleep.
I rest my head now and the thoughts won't shut down. My mind won't shut the F up. Anxiety drugs - may as well be M&M's.
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I don't mind "Mom's nuts" that part is fine. But I'm not ok with my rage, irritability, very confusing hating my life and things/people. Wanting to jump off this planet contradicts my love for my children.
And dealing with all these attornies and cpa's with business stuff. I'm tryingto hold it together long enough to get my job contract for 3 years, just have to make it through that, I don't know if I can even make it 3 years. I can barely work as it is. It's too much stress, too too much, but I have to just do it. I hate it.