Let me guess where your mother is.
Home, remembering the very words you just wrote out and exclaiming to your father "oh where is she now?"

You know, when we start cutting the rope is not easy. And it doesn't help to blame it on your husband.

You've got to decide whether you want to live the life you think right or the life your mother thinks right. Cause it seems your ideas of right are quite different.

You need to change habits. And that's a process and it does not take a minute.

You are hurting cause you believed for so long that she was right and that being a 'good girl' would lead to right places in life.
Now you are being an adult and watching over her teachings and deciding that maybe you don't like them a lot.

You can always be your Mum's favorite: all need to do is to go back to old habits and you'll get along just like one month ago.

But if you want to decide, if you want to be treated like an adult.... well don't ask so many questions about HER and think and build the life you want.