I hear what your saying..I am so sorry.. you must have been put thru allot with your previous episode, as you described, to be so scared of them finding out how much your hurting again...but instead of sitting by the phone afraid some stranger is going to talk to your parents, maybe it would best if you talked to them first, in your own way, in your own words...and not have another person interpeting what your told them over the phone..

Reaching out for help is not something you should punish yourself over, your hurting, and now your hurting and scared..please consider talking to your folks..take gentle care..you are a special light, dont let the darkness win...

Eva