Rakku,
Sounds to me like you are in two minds. Part of you wants so badly for t to convince you to stay but on the other hand you are looking for a reason not to trust her and for a reason for your t to mess up so you can run.
Has your t ever given you a reason not to trust her?
I think if the answer is no then if you leave this t and go to see another t the same problem will occur.
This issue of trust or lack of, could be worked out now with this current t if you told him/her what you are thinking now.