I have noticed and it has been pointed out to me by certain members here (you know who you are that I love my t one minute and next. Minute I hate her.
I even look for reasons to hate her, I have an idea why I might do this - because I can't be close to anyone and am afraid of it.
T has been really good to me in many ways yet I want to hate her and push her away. This happens with nearly everyone in my life. T doesn't know that I want to hate her but she senses distance sometimes and an atmosphere, she has asked if everything is ok and I will say yes. I am such a coward, I can't tell her how I really feel. Last week I shared some good news with her, she asked why I didn't tell anyone, I said I didn't have anyone to tell. She knew I had interview and asked how it went otherwise I would not have told her.
She was happy for me and asked for a hug but next day I wanted to look for a reason to hate her.
Why can't I just accept that t wants best for me and give her a break, she is not perfect but neither am I, what the hell is wrong with me?