you re not an idiot, you did the right thing, you prevented any harm from happening, things will be better, hang in there. In todays world we are all tired and we are all worried, we are all sad, we all hurt ,but the most importand thing is to survive, and you just did that , please promise me that you will survive, because it gets better ! i can promise you that. whenever you feel like that pm me i amalways here
Tommy