Even though this isn't exactly relevant, I just want to congratulate you on actually going to a therapist and psychiatrist. That is the biggest step to make when dealing with depression. I understand what you mean and how you are feeling because someone very near and dear to me experiences the same things you do and he does in fact have depression. Just do what makes you happy. Once you learn how to handle your depression, everything else will fall into place, trust me, you'll be okay,