School has never stressed me out this much. In high school I got by with just C's. I didn't really care so I didn't try as hard as I could have. Then my first two years of college I realized how important education is and how much I need to make a change, and so I did. I studied, I passed, and graduated with an Associates with honors having a pretty good GPA. Now that I transferred, my grades have dropped. I still have the same study habits. I try I really do. I stay up late, make study guides, but I either get a barely passing grade, or a just so close to passing grade. I haven't told anyone but I will most likely be on an academic probation or possibly dismissed. It breaks my heart every time I hear my parents brag about me. They're so proud of how far I've come. How can I break the news to them... that I may not be able to attend the university next semester. That their sacrifices were for nothing. Everyone I know looks at me with such high hopes. "You did it, you're out there getting an education by such a prestigious school, you're with the brightest of the bright" etc. It's an embarrassment really. I did so well before and now I basically flunked out. School is all I have. I don't work, I don't have enough experience to apply for a job. I've been using my loans to pay off my tuition, rent, and food. But now that I possibly won't be attending school, how am I suppose to pay off my bills. I already signed a lease with my apartment for another year (this was before I found out I was failing). I wish my school would give me another chance, although I don't deserve one. This is the second time I get off track and with how competitive things are, someone else who is trying to get in and with promising grades deserves my spot. In all honesty, I feel like a disgrace to the university and my family. I was accepted, had a pretty good GPA, and now I'm going to get kicked out because I failed. There is no one to blame but myself. I had good professors, I chose the classes, but I just left everything to last minute. I feel so ashamed. Once I hear those the words that I won't be allowed to attend next semester, I don't know where I'm going to be headed. I can't move in back with my parents due to my lease, but I can't continue to live there because I won't be able to afford it. Even if I do manage to find a part time job, how can I tell my family that I won't be going to school because I failed. I know I'm just repeating myself now, it's just it's been haunting me for the last two months now and every time I hear my parents talk so high about me I just want to get out of the room and cry because I let them down. I was never expecting this set back, yet alone prepared for it.