Myslef, I have had this falling apart thing going on for a while; I didn't expect it to continue and be so pronounced after sessions.

So it was happening before your last session where you tried using relaxation visualizations?

Now that is normal. it happens because during therapy your therapist is asking questions that will get you thinking about things. This usually stirs the pot so to speak bringing the problems to the surface so that they can be taken care of.

One way I handled this when I was seeing SKR is that I would call her voicemail just to hear her voice. doing that would remind me of the tools that I was learning during my sessions when the thoughts got stirred up during sessions. SKR got really good at recognizing when I was just calling to hear her voice and when I was calling to hear her voice and needed her help. Not to mention memorized my phone number LOL for I was calling every night at one point.

Another thing I did was pull out my copy of Laura Davis's book The Courage To Heal and find the pages that contained information and so on, on my problem that I was having at that moment. I would do them and then give my work to SKR the next time I saw her.

SKR also gave me a small bead pillow to hold and feel when things got going so that I had something physical to focus on and remind me to use my grounding techniques shortly before we went through This states ethics time frame of one year no therapy contact so that we could be legally and ethicall be considered friends and remain friends. That bead pillow comes in very handy these days even though I now see LL for therapy.

I also draw journal and other arts and crafts that help me to settle my head down after therapy sessions or any other time too.

Hang in there.