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Originally Posted by Mokuren
So my end of year show is coming up and the teacher wants a showreel of our best work. (i study animation at uni) I cringe when i look at my work and hate myself for not being better. I have been severely depressed recently so i have not been producing much work and improving my skills. I'm seriously considering not to submit any work but i know that sounds stupid. If i do submit work, i would get too excited and believe something good will happen or i will get lots of praise when in actual fact, i most likely will be dismissed.
Worse yet, if i do get praise, i wouldn't know how to handle the attention or i dismiss it for kindness. The show last year was a big let down and kinda a failure.
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SOunds like you recognize your self-defeating behaviours, and you need to calm down and submit the work and resolve to learn from any mistakes.
>I cringe when i look at my work and hate myself for not being better.
Yeah, me too. And then I often get A on it. Once I got A+ and the prof wanted my work as a model example for future students. That was a nice request. But I feel the same way you do, often. So don't let it get in your way. Even if you do top work, you will look at it in a year or two and not be so impressed. So just keep moving.