Why does it seem like everytime my boyfriend and i have to part, whether i have to do something or whatever, it always has to be negative. Last time he was so upset that i was leaving, he got so quiet, and pissed, and just sad, and i couldnt figure out, he said maybe he was jealous because he doesnt have any friends and i do. Thats what he does when hes angry, hes very quiet because hes thinking but he wont tell me what hes thinking, so i get upset, and assume that its something i did. He cant have friends really because he lives away from anyone he thinks of as a friend, and really they arent his friends unless he has weed...so...i told him to get involved with a sport or club, but he doesnt have time, hes only 18 and hes already in debt and has to work full time, and apparently im the only thing that makes him happy. But if thats the case then why is it when he leaves or when i leave its negative. He cant be like " i love you hunnie i cant wait to see you again" it always has to be negative. The past two times have been bad. Today he was just angry, because i couldnt drive him home tomorrow although i had planned to, because i just learned my grandfather whose ill with cancer fell and probably wont be around much longer. I dont mean to make him sound selfish...but he has to be at this restaurant hes getting a job at between 8 and 10. So....i wasnt about to drive all the way out there, and then home, and then the hour and a half to my grandfathers...thats asking a lot, when his sister could just get off her *** and drive a total of a half an hour to get him and go home....should i feel bad? I always feel bad when hes upset, whether its my fault or not, and i know that not everything is my fault, but i just dont feel well at all....I feel sad, and now im just angry because no matter what i do it doesnt feel good enough.

all things shall pass...even life.