I haven't posted in a while. Today has been a blah day. My friend is doing better...she's no longer in the hospital...but that's not why I'm so down. I did a real stupid thing these last couple of months. I met a guy who was married but he left his wife(he moved out of their house). Anyway this guy and I really connected..clicked..whatever u want to call it. I let my walls and guard down and so did he. To make a long story short, things were going great and then Friday he tells me to walk away. I can't understand it. We went to dinner Thurs nite, he met my sick friend, we talked about the future, etc. and then bam he hits me with that on Fri. He said that he couldn't handle our relationship and that it wasn't me or anything that I did or didn't do, it was all him and he was too messed up in his head to deal with us. I've been in a funk all weekend. I'm starting to think that something is really wrong with me. Nothing is working out for me and I feel so lonely and depressed. I'm still taking my meds but I have a hard time sleeping at nite. Not sure what to do about all of my baggage. Anyone have any ideas????????