A couple years back my aunt randomly said to me that guilt is a useless emotion. Sometimes I use that creed as an excuse during manic episodes to be impulsive without feeling guilt. Other times I use it for good to actually allow myself to not be so guilty and judgmental of each and every action. Guilt can be so oppressive to a bipolar person especially, try to step back and focus on the positives of your parenting and what a good mom you know you can be, and hopefully that will help take some of the pressure off of your own actions.