I'm really, really sorry that I got confused and missed our session this morning. I am way too much trouble. And I am having a really hard time right now but I have no idea why, what good telling you would do, or what you could say that would help. Last night I called a suicide hotline ten times and hung up, and I am having trouble making sense of anything and holding myself together. I am pretty sure that I am too ****ed up to ever fix myself and I am too tired.