Oh Jean, you are NOT a loser, and you're certainly NOT defective! You were made in the image of God. You are a child of God. How can you be defective?

Just because we have an illness doesn't make us defective. And it doesn't make us "different" either. If you ask me, I'd say the majority of people on earth suffer from depression at some time in their lives -- it's just that some of us are stuck with it for longer -- and like me, I've had it for a lifetime. LOL

Acceptance is the word. We have to learn how to accept this disease. Yes, it stinks that we have it -- but if we accept the fact that there are times when we feel like we're living in a deep hole -- but that there IS a way out of that hole -- we'll be okay.

Therapy did help me but it was NOT the cure-all. I still had to have medication on top of therapy and even the psychologist AND psychiatrist said so. Some of the psych meds the doctors hand out are a bit much when all we need are antidepressants!

Jean, you're not alone my friend. We all understand what you're going thru and we certainly sympathize. Please know that there IS light at the end of the tunnel - and you WILL see that light. But please don't berate yourself, as that isn't doing you any good at all. Did you know that before you can REALLY care for anyone else, you MUST love yourself first?? It is true!!! You have to learn to love YOU!!! So how about doing this every morning --- go to your mirror, and look at yourself and say "I love you" and keep saying that until you BELIEVE IT. At some point you will -- it may take months, but you will. You are a good, caring, loving person who deserves good things in her life! Just learn to love you. Hugs, Lee