That must be super hard *hugs*
but doesnt matter how hard it is all you can do now its move on, and now at least you can see better who your friends really are *hugs*

Are you in therapy? is there any support group that you could join, maybe from there you could make a new friends and find a way to accept your condition now and make a better of it

Iam so sorry about your situation, share here more maybe could help somehow *hugs*