You are right. It takes a great deal of fortitude to cope with mental illness. I don't have paranoia myself, but I have dealt with it enough to be able to empathize. It takes a lot of guts to live with that day in and day out--great strength. It is the people who look down on you that are weak and small--not you!!! It takes a very big person to reach out for help and battle against mental illness on a day to day basis. I applaud you. All the best. Take care now.