Hi I am recently re-diagnosed (i totally ignored the first diagnosis about 10 years ago and spent a decade flying off-the-handle & crashing). Now I have accepted the diagnosis of bp w/ anxiety disorder + ocd tendencies. I am on lithium only and it has helped even me out. I would say that I hadn't felt a sense of peace for so long that i cannot remember, and FINALLY, w/ the help of meds and acceptance i feel mainly peaceful. I still have my moments, like social situations where i feel awkward, etc...but other than than I am much better now. Psych central and the amazing group of people here have been so helpful in letting me know i am not alone and learn what i need to so i can be proactive in my treatment. I know you will find the same thing here. Cheers to you and the road ahead. (((hugs)))