Just read this article today 
I can relate and though I have no words of wisdom I will say though that Lithium is supposed to be an amazing drug for Bipolar. So give it some time. I hope you feel better soon.
Sad Music Can Help Mend Broken Heart | Psych Central News
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Dx: BP1, ADD, OCD, PTSD, GAD Current: Topamax 200mg, Ativan 1mg PRN, Lamictal 200mg, Ritalin 20mgx2, Klonopin 1mg PRN, Omega 3 Abilify 10mg
Past & failed: Seroquel, Saphris, Lithium, Neurontin, Wellbutrin, Prozac, Effexor, Zoloft, Celexa, Paxil, Remeron, Vistaril, Haldol, Ambien, Restoril Xanax and now most likely Abilify
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