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Originally Posted by Bipolarartist
Is it possible to do EMDR and NOT talk through the incident? In one EMDR session I thought about the incident but couldn't say what I was thinking as thinking about it made me feel a bit sick. After the session I felt my T was chastising me for not talking out loud. I then shutdown.
Well, now I need to do the EMDR work again, and I'm ambivalent towards it, I know I need to it, but I can't even say s****l abuse. I can say abuse and abuser but can't put THAT word with it. Let alone descriptions of it.
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It may be that you aren't completely ready to do EMDR. I would definitely talk to your T about your ability to verbalize your trauma before continuing with EMDR.
I suffer from a great deal of trauma as well, including one of the abuses you mentioned above. When I first started seeing my T, he mentioned how EMDR could be helpful for me and we started working on the earlier phases. We are currently in the phase of teaching me my safe place and "installing" that with me.
I asked T at my recent session when we would move forward to the bilateral stimulation. He said not for a while, a very long while. He mentioned that I would need to be emotionally stable with talking about the traumas before reprocessing those memories. I have a LOT of trouble saying the words you mentioned above, and I can barely say the "r" word. If I even think about talking about what happened to me to my T I get panic attacks and I start to lose it emotionally.
I would definitely talk to your T and bring up to them your difficulties mentioning certain words and verbalizing what you are feeling. Maybe take a break from EMDR for a bit and let things calm down, continue with talk therapy, and revisit it in the future.
*HUGS* and hang in there...