Try doing some research on "mindfulness". Sometimes it takes a change in how we approach the disorder and our thinking. I don't think there is a magic pill. The problem I had with medication was, as soon as I would start to feel good I would want to start to decrease dosages. Now, I very much live in the moment (mindfulness) and take quite a combo of meds, but I'm happy and stable. It took a lot of hard work and a conscious decision that I was not going to let the disorder ruin my life. I will be 38 next week, and I'm making it....I set out to "master bipolar" and I'm doing it. But it wouldn't be possible had I not learned how to practice and implement mindfulness as a way of being.

Try to think of 5 positive things right now. And in case you say there isn't any, I can help. First you have electricity, there are those without, you have internet, so you have access to as much information as you could possibly want, I'm assuming you are not standing out in the rain, so a roof over your head? Your turn. Now in this moment, what do you need? Not want, need?

I wish you nothing but happy days.

Kim